Bapa Surgawi

Enam atau tujuh tahun yang lalu, saya mengikuti KOMJak. Di retret pembukanya Romo Harry mengajak peserta untuk menyanyikan lagu Bapa Surgawi. 

Bapa Surgawi ajarku mengenal
Betapa dalamnya kasihMu
Bapa surgawi buatku mengerti
Betapa kasihMu padaku
Semua yang terjadi didalam hidupku
Ajarku menyadari kau selalu sertaku
Dihatiku selalu bersyukur padaMu
Karna rencanaMu indah bagiku

Jujur pada saat itu, saya tidak merasakan apa-apa. Saya ga familiar dengan lagunya, hanya tau itu lagu Nikita. Hanya moment itu cukup berkesan, mungkin karena menurut saya lagunya biasa saja dan kenapa romo pilih lagu ya? 

Jadi sampai sekarang, lagu itu identik dengan romo Harry. Namun belakangan ini, saya semakin mengerti dan tersentuh dengan lagu ini dan bahkan menjadi satu lagu favorit kalau lagi nyetir. 

Saya ga habis mikir, kenapa Tuhan mau ciptain saya? Kenapa Tuhan mengasihi saya. Rasanya ga nyata aja bahwa ada yang peduli, ada yang sayang sama saya. Walaupun mengetahui segala hal yang telah saya perbuat, namun kasih-Nya tetap ada untuk saya. 

Dalam setiap kesalahan dan dosa yang telah saya buat, Tuhan tetap memperbaiki semuanya dan menjadikannya indah. Padahal Dia tidak harus melakukan itu semua. 

Rasanya kalau mau direnungin “Saya dikasihi Tuhan,” maka tidak akan ada habisnya. 

Terima kasih Tuhan.. 


Here, There, and Where?

First of all, there are so many things going on in my life at the moment. I am in charge with this year Confirmation class. It has been a great learning experience, I know I made mistake and such but I learned a lot. The confirmation will be held on Nov 18, 2017. I truly need all your prayer so that everything will run smoothly.

Besides that, another important event is the ordination of the new bishop which will happen on Saturday September 23, 2017 in Pangkalpinang. My diocese consists of many islands, and pangkalpinang is about an hour flight from here. Meanwhile, Catholics in my area are preparing for the first mass here, which will happen on October 1, 2017. FYI, the last ordination of bishop happened in 1987. So yes, we are very excited and looking forward to this event.

The young adult ministry in my parish is starting a new. With new leaders and many new members, we started meeting regularly for Gospel Sharing and Youcat Study group. Personally, I am very optimistic with this group.



In Memoriam : Auntie Pat

Auntie Pat passed away yesterday morning.
I knew her since I was 8 years old. She worked in my supplier’s office in Singapore. She was always very kind and generous. She would always have sweets, toys, etc to give me whenever I went there with my late dad. Meeting her would always make my day.
She had been sick for some time. The last Lunar New Year, she was hospitalised and she insisted her sister to call my mum because she wanted to give my mum something and also red packets for me and my sister. At that time, I believe we knew that this moment was coming.
But no matter how much you prepare, I can never be prepared for this. I don’t know. Maybe because I seldom experience the few deaths in my family that I experienced were sudden that I didn’t have time to grieve or… maybe I don’t want to. My father’s death happened just like that, so was my grandma’s. Uncle Jan’s too. It happened to quick and sudden that I didn’t have time to process anything. After that, life went back to normal. I have never been good at saying goodbye and probably never will.
DearAuntie Pat,
Thank you for the joy and blessing you have brought into my life. I will miss you and you will never be forgotten.


A quarter into 2016, and this is my first post. Sorry!

I’ve been busy with the Young Adult group across the Vicariate Forane here. We’re preparing for Indonesian Youth Day (IYD), which will be held in Manado, North Sulawesi on October 1-6 2016.

There are so many challenges that we have to face in this project. For example, geography; there are 7 parishes and it’s located in different islands, four in Batam island and the other three are in three different islands. So it’s very difficult and costly to have meeting. I will make another post solely on IYD.

Another good news, I’m back being an active member of Legion of Mary. It was a tough call. It took me almost 7 months to finally decide that I wanted to be an active member. During those 7 months, I had the thought to quit more than I could count. It was definitely not easy for me. But I made my decision. Thus, I said my Legion Promise 2 weeks ago. This is my 3rd Praesidium and my 12th year being Legioner. I think Legion of Mary is the only Church group where I never see any fight/quarrel among the members. The Legion meeting is very organized and packed that we don’t have idle time to do/discuss anything else besides our meeting.

 So yes, that’s about it.

Dengue Fever & Crow

Hey all!

I’ve been super busy this week. A cousin of mine has been hospitalized since Monday for Dengue Fever. He came from another island, about 90 minutes away. He was in terrible shape when he came, his Blood platelet count was only 2,000. Normally, you would have from 150,000 to 450,000 platelet per microlitre of circulating blood. He’s still in the hospital but the doctor said he could be discharged from the hospital tomorrow. So that’s a good news.

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Last weekend and 1989

Last weekend was busy but super fun. It’s been so long since I had an enjoyable weekend. I was involved in 3 events; 2 Jack Daniels events (Halloween theme!) and a closing mass for the month of Rosary, organised by Sanctuary of Galang. I’m glad everything went smoothly for me, as the events on Saturday were back to back.

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Divine Mercy Devotion

I woke up at 3.02 am. I dont think I ever had this close to 3.00 am. So, I prayed for the loved ones and other souls who might need it.

The past few weeks, I grew very close to the Devotion of the Divine Mercy. I think it was because I woke up around 3 am. The first one was difficult and it got easier each time.

I started to read Divine Mercy literature and amazed that how the Lord spoke to me. I could truly relate to some, especially Divine Mercy Daily e-mail. Short and very meaningful.